Sunday, November 24, 2002

Just took the Kiersey Personality Sorter..( in case you're wondering), and got my results, even paid to get the full definition. I know, I know, I've said for years that I wouldn't pay for ANYTHING over the web, ever. But I did. So shut up. Anyway, what I was trying to say before you so *rudely* interrupted me - according to the sorter my class is a 'Rational', and my subclass is 'Mastermind'. Here's the definition of what a Mastermind is supposed to be :

All Rationals are good at planning operations, but Masterminds are head and shoulders above all the rest in contingency planning. Complex operations involve many steps or stages, one following another in a necessary progression, and Masterminds are naturally able to grasp how each one leads to the next, and to prepare alternatives for difficulties that are likely to arise any step of the way. Trying to anticipate every contingency, Masterminds never set off on their current project without a Plan A firmly in mind, but they are always prepared to switch to Plan B or C or D if need be.
Masterminds are rare, comprising no more than, say, one percent of the population, and they are rarely encountered outside their office, factory, school, or laboratory. Although they are highly capable leaders, Masterminds are not at all eager to take command, preferring to stay in the background until others demonstrate their inability to lead. Once they take charge, however, they are thoroughgoing pragmatists. Masterminds are certain that efficiency is indispensable in a well-run organization, and if they encounter inefficiency-any waste of human and material resources-they are quick to realign operations and reassign personnel. Masterminds do not feel bound by established rules and procedures, and traditional authority does not impress them, nor do slogans or catchwords. Only ideas that make sense to them are adopted; those that don't, aren't, no matter who thought of them. Remember, their aim is always maximum efficiency.
In their careers, Masterminds usually rise to positions of responsibility, for they work long and hard and are dedicated in their pursuit of goals, sparing neither their own time and effort nor that of their colleagues and employees. Problem-solving is highly stimulating to Masterminds, who love responding to tangled systems that require careful sorting out. Ordinarily, they verbalize the positive and avoid comments of a negative nature; they are more interested in moving an organization forward than dwelling on mistakes of the past.
Masterminds tend to be much more definite and self-confident than other Rationals, having usually developed a very strong will. Decisions come easily to them; in fact, they can hardly rest until they have things settled and decided. But before they decide anything, they must do the research. Masterminds are highly theoretical, but they insist on looking at all available data before they embrace an idea, and they are suspicious of any statement that is based on shoddy research, or that is not checked against reality.

What do you think ? Some of the stuff in here I can see describes me, and I ran it by a couple friends who said that it describes me perfectly....although the one girl I ran it by said that I am nothing like that. Maybe I just act different around her - scratch that, probably I act different around her. What really gets to me is the part about being less than one percent of the population - that's exactly what my OTHER tests said, too. And while I did get a passing feeling of specialness (check, real word?), it was soon overwhelmed by a sense of despair at my chances for finding someone I can relate to. For those of you who are lucky enough to not have my problem, think about if you tried to explain something (say, football) to a New Guinea tribes-guy. You see that blank expression on his face there ? That's more or less how people have looked at me for my entire life. And the worst part is I can't blame them, since I appear to be the exception to the rule of humanity - not the other way around. I'm too intelligent for the party crowd (yes I know how rejected-losery that sounds, but it's true), too sensible for the substance-abuse crowd, and I've been told by members of the nerdy/driven-to-succeed groups that I frighten them. Well, there are other reasons I don't fit into any particular group, but they make me sound bad and since this is my forum, I'm not going to say them :-P So there. When they make a social grouping that fits me, my high-Iq-complete-lack-of-interest-in-human-affairs self, let me know, would you ?

Yes, I realize that I sound really whiny here, but that's how I feel today, so suffer.